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Saturday, January 12, 2008

What is this??

Ok so...this is I guess my first blog ever, and for those who know me know I am not much of a writer, but more a talker. I decided to start this blog today of all days because I am in need of an outlet for feelings I am having that even I can't put into words to talk about. I have been feeling like someone has pushed the fast forward button and my life is just flying by before my eyes. I look at my kids and wonder what in the heck happened, I mean didn't I just give birth to them yesterday? How can I be six years into this parenting thing? I look at my husband and wonder how could we be about to to celebrate 9 years of marriage, wasn't it just last week we were saying our vows to each other? Now he knows me inside and out, the good & the bad (& the evil =) ) The other day I looked at my "baby" brother as he helped me carry my babies out to the van in a snow storm and thought wasn't it just last year that I carried you on my hip? How could you be a man? Over the past year I have seen a series of events that have really made me put life into prospective. One of these things is seeing my dad go from the active man I remember, to one whose face is filled with pain with every step he takes. Whose pain has changed his expression and taken the color from his face. Whose pain makes it almost impossible for him to even get out of bed. I find myself saying, what happened? Wasn't it just last year you were taking us kids on dune buggy rides or for walks all over the woods or in the swamps catching turtles? I have realized that life really does fly by and that certain things, both good and bad, happen whether we are ready for them too or not.

3 comments:

colleen fraser said...

Wow, you have hit this right on. I also feel life passing me by so fast, especially when I see my very own children in the faces, expressions, and personalities of my grandkids. It truly helps you put life into perspective, never take life for granted. Enjoy and saver it all, each moment that you can.
Love to all,
Colleen

Shelly said...

See I thought you might have alot to share. I think the older we get the faster life takes us. I often think in 6 years Ty will be driving and it scares the hell out of me. Don't worry we have each other to get us through these fast moments. Just enjoy every little bit you can. Love ya, Shelly

Anonymous said...

Wow girl! You certainly are a good writer - whether you realize it or not. I too find myself more of a talker - but have found it somewhat therapeutic to put my feelings into writing. I often think of all the good & bad we've experienced together and I'm so grateful for each and every one of them! It's wonderful to know we truely are blessed with great, lifelong friends!
~Lea